I just wish you knew you are worth so much more than rope tied to doorknobs and scotch laced in disappointment

it's crazy how music can take you back.

remembering big fields and late night talks and me that I'm yours

reminding me you're the greatest terrible thing that's ever happened to me

I am learning how to sleep alone and wake up by myself -

I've stopped rolling over and expecting someone there.

slipping is okay. 

But walking into thin ice is not. 

you're allowed to make a mistake on day 1
and still have an amazing year.

don't let a mistake destine you to fail
don't let toxic things take another day

And hey...
you made it
you called this the worst year of your life - and you made it
you survived brokenness & transition & everything changing & everything upside down
making new friends & decisions & learning who you are without him.

you.
fucking.
made.
it.

live this year like the victor you are.