Sometimes life is tough for no particular reason. I’m going through one of those seasons.
Sometimes I dream about my future and I can’t figure out if these dreams are from me or God or they’re realistic or idealistic. And I don’t know which path I should take and if certain things are roadblocks or closed doors or just the devils deterrents from achieving what God has planned for me.
Sometimes I wonder if anyone else can relate to this struggle…
Sometimes I wonder about Jeremiah 29:11.
“’For I know the plans I have for you’, declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.’”
And I think about the plans I have for myself: Plans to be a nurse or to work with kids or to write something worth reading, to get married someday, to have a job where I can wear ‘real people clothes’.
And I think about the plans God has for me. And I wonder if any of them line up. What if God has greater things in store for me? I wonder if that’s even possible. I mean I’m just an ordinary 20 year old. I’ve probably made more mistakes than some people. Sometimes I wonder if I could ever impact the world like I want to. And most times I hear a loud voice in my head telling me I’m not enough.
Sometimes I listen to that voice.
Sometimes I listen to God.
“For I know the plans I have for you…plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
Sometimes I get really tired of dreaming small, but feel too small to dream any bigger.
Sometimes I have a broken heart for no particular reason but not knowing if I could ever live up to the plans that God has for my life. Wondering if I will ever be bold enough to take steps I’m unsure of, if I will ever be able to leave my comfort zone and step into unsure plans that could very logically harm me, with the faith that God has a future for me.
Sometimes I tell myself, “If I am just patient, God will fulfill His plans for me.”
Then I read on.
“Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you…” (Jer. 29:12-14a)
Sometimes I want to stay comfortable.
Most times I want to find Him.
Liz, Only God knows what He has for you. I think often times, there are many choices. We need to pray and seek Him and choose the thing that feels right in your heart and soul. He will keep you safe if you let Him hold and guard your heart- read Psalms 91. He made you to be the best you that you can be in Him. Embrace your uniqueness and be true to the woman God is making you to be. Don't try to put yourself into the mold of someone else, because it will never work. We are all so very different and sometimes our uniqueness will be the thing that separates us from all of the others to reach only those that you can. You are enough...with God -more than enough. You are so very special, made in His Likeness and searching for your place in this world. It is not an instant answer. It is a journey and the journey continues to make you and transform you into the one special person that you are and will continue to become. Step out, do not be afraid, for fear is not of God, but of Satan. "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in ALL your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones." Proverbs 3: 5-8. You are a blessing and your transparency and candor, I believe, are a sweet aroma to Our Father...May you step out and let Him guide you one step at a time, one journey at a time and when you look back in the years to come, you will see a life that He has beautifully woven together....May God give you peace and faith to follow His path as you begin your journey in this life. Peace to your heart and Know that you are so very precious to Him....Blessings, Lauren Hurst
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